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Bamboo River, Selangor, Malaysia
i'm a happy 4feet girl.... slumber... cheer... n friendly.... i like 2 sing, act and hosting like to create songs,poems and story. family,friends and writing are my life....

Monday, September 22, 2014

The last....

this might be my last post in this blog....i will not closed this blog just gonna stop posting new post
this blog already kept all my  memories...loves and etc
especially love...heeeee
however...thank u dear bloggie
4years being with me...has all my stories
sad and happy
i am happy to have u all this time
the place where i could writes and express what i couldn't express with my voice and words
thank u
however, it's time for me to leave
can't continue blogging & writing here anymore
i've create this blog because of someone
express the stories of people i loved so much
now....its time to move on
i think i already find my own way on how to express what i wanna say and though
but i will always loves u my dear pinkish blog...
for readers...thank u for having ur time reading all my post
love ya..

Wednesday, September 10, 2014


yes....i felt so davistated so much
undescribable how i felt
maybe its time to let know how hard for me to forget someone that i care and love so much...
remember Kayrul??
it takes 2years for me to get him off from my mind although i already have new boyfriend
and now....Mr.F
we've went for vacation and so on......
i don't know
i don't know...
i just pull my strength off...he's not the guy i've expected
i've thrown everything so i could forget him
because.....its already over the limit
i can't hold it anymore
this is too cruel
i will never forgive you

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

i don't know

9 months left to finish my studies
and at that period also...where i'm gonna go chasing my dream to work in Airlines Industry
i don't know why
i really want to work in Airlines Industries....well...yeah i really want to be a part of cabin crew height and my family not allowed me to be one of cabin crew after what happen to MH17 and MH370
but as for me....
i am impress and more appreciate to those that working in aviation industries
maybe...i'm gonna choose, foreign airlines
need to work hard on that....and i'm planning to open my own business as well...
still trying
and work on it
cuz i'm too busy right now with my studies and daily activities and work and bla...bla..bla...hehehehehehe
well i love being busy
when i'm busy...all the sorrowness will vanish from my mind
i'm maybe....smiling and laughing
i cannot be alone
when i'm alone....i'll be haunted by my previous sadness
its hard for hard....
its never being so hard like this to forget someone
i cry because i regret
i cry because i can't go back to past
i cry because i've lost what i've should kept
but then just move forward like nothing happen...
like Marco says....'just take step forward and everything will be fine'
"i need explaination, i need an exceptable reason"
silence kills isn't?
after watching 'Starting All Over Again' movie yesterday...i learn something from Marco character
and thats what i'm gonna do
why should i kept waiting for something just gonna killed my self.....2years and 10month already enough and learn everything
yes....i love him before until now
i've been to his world...i've always on his side but....its good for me to let it go
yes he makes me happy all the time
but....if this the end so i have to ended....its not that i'm giving up
its time for me to stop trying
he never felt the same thing the way i felt......