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Monday, September 22, 2014

The last....


this might be my last post in this blog....i will not closed this blog just gonna stop posting new post
yup...
this blog already kept all my  memories...loves and etc
especially love...heeeee
however...thank u dear bloggie
4years being with me...has all my stories
sad and happy
i am happy to have u all this time
the place where i could writes and express what i couldn't express with my voice and words
thank u
however, it's time for me to leave
can't continue blogging & writing here anymore
i've create this blog because of someone
express the stories of people i loved so much
now....its time to move on
i think i already find my own way on how to express what i wanna say and though
but i will always loves u my dear pinkish blog...
for readers...thank u for having ur time reading all my post
love ya..
Anne...

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Davistated

yes....i felt so davistated so much...so much
undescribable how i felt
maybe its time to let go....you know how hard for me to forget someone that i care and love so much...
remember Kayrul??
it takes 2years for me to get him off from my mind although i already have new boyfriend
and now....Mr.F
we've went for vacation and so on......
i don't know
i don't know...
i just pull my strength off...he's not the guy i've expected
i've thrown everything so i could forget him
because.....its already over the limit
i can't hold it anymore
this is too cruel
i will never forgive you

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

i don't know

9 months left to finish my studies
and at that period also...where i'm gonna go chasing my dream to work in Airlines Industry
i don't know why
i really want to work in Airlines Industries....well...yeah i really want to be a part of cabin crew
but...my height and my family not allowed me to be one of cabin crew after what happen to MH17 and MH370
but as for me....
i am impress and more appreciate to those that working in aviation industries
maybe...i'm gonna choose, foreign airlines
yup!
need to work hard on that....and i'm planning to open my own business as well...
still trying
and work on it
cuz i'm too busy right now with my studies and daily activities and work and bla...bla..bla...hehehehehehe
well i love being busy
when i'm busy...all the sorrowness will vanish from my mind
right?
i'm maybe....smiling and laughing
but....eventually...
undescribable
i cannot be alone
when i'm alone....i'll be haunted by my previous sadness
its hard for me....so hard....
its never being so hard like this to forget someone
i cry because i regret
i cry because i can't go back to past
i cry because i've lost what i've should kept
but then just move forward like nothing happen...
like Marco says....'just take step forward and everything will be fine'
"i need explaination, i need an exceptable reason"
silence kills isn't?
after watching 'Starting All Over Again' movie yesterday...i learn something from Marco character
and thats what i'm gonna do
why should i kept waiting for something just gonna killed my self.....2years and 10month already enough and learn everything
yes....i love him before until now
i've been to his world...i've always on his side but....its good for me to let it go
yes he makes me happy all the time
but....if this the end so i have to ended....its not that i'm giving up
its time for me to stop trying
he never felt the same thing the way i felt......

Sunday, August 31, 2014

Starting All Over Again


its a new philiphine movie...
i like it
the plot of the story also interesting....the best quotes in the movie when Marco and Ginny argue
"I need an explanation, i need an exceptable reason..."
so do i...
and i learn something precious from this movie

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

No post no pict NOTHING

helloooooooooooo bloggies
sorry long time no post yawl
busyyyyyy
busy with studies and work
no time to post anything yet
however
SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all the Muslim
and Happy Birthday to my friend's 1st son, Haqimi
and...bla bla bla
a lot happening this month
un describable
and i don't know where to start where to end
but...
as long as you all know i'm fine good great thank u
hehehehehehehe

ok
ok
ok....
am i okay right now??
absolutely!!
i'm so into my work
crazy about my work
i don't do a lot
but...i enjoy my work as my boss assistant
following her to anywhere
doing jobs and so on
working on more events and....lalalalalla
so many things
but i enjoy working with her
she inspired me a lot to climb the mountain of success
and she teach me a lot of new things to
and... she motivate me to just focus about what u want to do and forget the others
yup
that what i was doing right now
i want to finish my studies as soon as possible so that i can move to overseas
yeayyyyyyy!!
i'm thinking of searching careers maybe at Singapore or sydney...cuz my boss could help me on that
or maybe to South Korea like my uncle
if i just stayed in Malaysia
i probably gonna work at Airlines industries
not as cabin crew sillyyyy
probably in my field of expertise like in events, marketing or human resources
just wish me luck luck luck
i'm serious about this
just one more semester left
then i'll be free!!!!

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Black history...bright future...maybe? Insya'Allah








At the age like this.....as a woman...
of course i want a beautiful life in the future with someone i love...
but history keeps hunts me
will there be someone?
can he accept me just the way i am??
can he??
however....
sometimes i prefer to be alone
sometimes i felt i need someone...
but will that person can filled and accept me??
its already ruin...
my heart already ruin and breaks in pieces...hard to trust anyone anymore
how?
its totally already breaks into tiny little pieces
the happiness just for a moments
the promises just for a moments
i never cried for someone before...but everyday thinking of my self
why i still alive??
why??
i've shouldn't still alive...
i've ruin my own life
like honestly...i never loved someone so much
but this is not once...but twice
i though....given him chance and time
would change everything
but i don't know
what am i still waiting and hoping
will he comeback??
i don't think so....
As for me....just livin' with the dark history thats only makes me cry everyday reminding what i've done and sacrifice for my whole life
i cry...everyday...everyday thinking....
how my future will be??
will it be the same like other women??
can i be happy?
can i have a good life??
How can i still care to someone that not even care a second about me...
everyday i being hunt with the darkness of my past history
yes...past of that 10month
i'm so happy with him
happy that finally i can be with someone i love so much and waiting for past 2years after what happen
but then...everything just vanish in a blink of an eye
i accept him just the way he is
i don't care what his job is...his attitude,hobby although its opposite with my ideal man of life
everything already ends
how can i stop thinking about it when silence kills rather than the truth
everyday i woke up i can't stop thinking and sometimes i'll cried...
so many memories....its scattered  everywhere

Dear Allah...please help me forget him if he is not for me
please forgive me if i forgot u

Amin...

Sunny...



Seseorang yang kita pikir adalah milik kita, ternyata bukan benar-
benar milik kita..
Kita memiliki hatinya, tubuhnya, dan cintanya tapi.. kita tidak akan
pernah memiliki jalan hidupnya..

Cinta... apakah benar-benar ada..???
Aku menjadi bermakna bukan ketika cinta berhak menghampiriku..
Tetapi aku merasa sudah bermakna sejak aku harap cinta menghampiriku..
Karena...Apa yang lebih bermakna dalam hidup sebenarnya tidak perlu..


Aku merasa ada yang hilang.. tanpa tahu apa yang sudah aku temukan..
Aku merasa menemukan.. tanpa tahu apa yang aku cari
Dan.. Aku seperti masih mencari tanpa tahu apa yang sudah hilang..

Walaupun pertemuanku dengannya tidak seindah yang kuharapkan setidaknya kita berbicara...  setelah sekian lama aku cuma bisa mengaguminya...  jadi bagaimanapun bentuk pertemuan itu tetap bisa menjadi awal yang indah nantinya... siapa tau?

Aku pernah menonton sebuah film yang pesannya bilang..
bahwa jika kamu mencintai seseorang,,
maka kamu harus mengatakannya begitu moment itu datang,,
karena kalau tidak, maka moment itu akan pergi begitu aja,,
dan nggak akan pernah datang lagi, lalu kamu akan menyesal,,

Manusia mempunyai mimpi,
Ada yang mengejar dan menggapainya,
Ada yang mundur dan membuangnya,
Ada yang diam dan hanya menyimpannya sepanjang sisa hidupnya...

“dan AKU akan menjadi manusia yang terakhir itu…”

“tidak ada pertemuan yang abadi”

“namun sama halnya dengan pertemuan, perpisahan pun tidak ada yang abadi”

Itu yang merubah pikiranku yang dulu
“Dimana ada Pertemuan, pasti ada Perpisahan”

Jika Pertemuan Indah, maka Perpisahan juga menjadi Indah..


Aku lelah,, dan aku telah sampai dimana aku menoleh dan menyadari… aku tidak pernah menemukan apa-apa.. dan bahwa seumur hidupku aku pura-pura bahagia”



“Setiap manusia memiliki ruang kosong dihatinya, ketika seseorang datang dan kita berfikir dia mengisi ruang kosong itu, sebenarnya ia hanya berdiri didepan pintu dan menyamarkan ruang kosong itu. Ruang kosong dihati kita tetap ada dan tidak akan pernah benar-benar terisi.”

Seseorang yang kita pikir adalah milik kita, ternyata bukan benar-
benar milik kita..
Kita memiliki hatinya, tubuhnya, dan cintanya tapi.. kita tidak akan
pernah memiliki jalan hidupnya..

Cinta... apakah benar-benar ada..???
Aku menjadi bermakna bukan ketika cinta berhak menghampiriku..
Tetapi aku merasa sudah bermakna sejak aku harap cinta menghampiriku..
Karena...Apa yang lebih bermakna dalam hidup sebenarnya tidak perlu..


Aku merasa ada yang hilang.. tanpa tahu apa yang sudah aku temukan..
Aku merasa menemukan.. tanpa tahu apa yang aku cari
Dan.. Aku seperti masih mencari tanpa tahu apa yang sudah hilang..

Walaupun pertemuanku dengannya tidak seindah yang kuharapkan setidaknya kita berbicara...  setelah sekian lama aku cuma bisa mengaguminya...  jadi bagaimanapun bentuk pertemuan itu tetap bisa menjadi awal yang indah nantinya... siapa tau?

Aku pernah menonton sebuah film yang pesannya bilang..
bahwa jika kamu mencintai seseorang,,
maka kamu harus mengatakannya begitu moment itu datang,,
karena kalau tidak, maka moment itu akan pergi begitu aja,,
dan nggak akan pernah datang lagi, lalu kamu akan menyesal,,

Manusia mempunyai mimpi,
Ada yang mengejar dan menggapainya,
Ada yang mundur dan membuangnya,
Ada yang diam dan hanya menyimpannya sepanjang sisa hidupnya...

“dan AKU akan menjadi manusia yang terakhir itu…”

“tidak ada pertemuan yang abadi”

“namun sama halnya dengan pertemuan, perpisahan pun tidak ada yang abadi”

Itu yang merubah pikiranku yang dulu
“Dimana ada Pertemuan, pasti ada Perpisahan”

Jika Pertemuan Indah, maka Perpisahan juga menjadi Indah..


Aku lelah,, dan aku telah sampai dimana aku menoleh dan menyadari… aku tidak pernah menemukan apa-apa.. dan bahwa seumur hidupku aku pura-pura bahagia”

“Setiap manusia memiliki ruang kosong dihatinya, ketika seseorang datang dan kita berfikir dia mengisi ruang kosong itu, sebenarnya ia hanya berdiri didepan pintu dan menyamarkan ruang kosong itu. Ruang kosong dihati kita tetap ada dan tidak akan pernah benar-benar terisi.”

+Cinta Pertama(2004)+



Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Just Go on.....enjoy the life

yes i'm disappointed
yes...i'm heartbroken
but what can i do
lifes go on....let it be my dark past
i'm a girl...u know what it felt like when u lost the most precious thing in your life
i don't want to talk about it anymore....depends on him
and depends on my self
and i choose,,,,to move on
forget all the promises
forget all the regrets
now its the time to move foward
right?

enough with that....now i've met a new friend...
who?
secret
its a Human of course...
we're just friend
yesterday was my first experience break fast at KLCC garden
never knew thats the fountain are so freakin' awesomeeee
what a lame Malaysian i am didn't know that KLCXC has the most awesome colourful fountain
hahahahahaahahha
i enjoy the wonderful night view at KLCC....1st time i realize that KLCC are so freakin awesome
hahahahahaha
byeeeee
continue next post

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Dear Mr.Chef.....

i don't know what happen...
but your silence are totally killing me....
i'm not giving up...i'm not surrender...i just stop trying...
what else can i do when u choose to be silence
how can i forget i past happiness....
my daily days with u just filled with laughter,,,,
just lately...
it's cold between us...maybe it's my fault
i admit it
or maybe something else...

tak tau either abg akan baca ni atau tak....
Ann tak pernah menyesal kenal abg
apa pun abang buat.....bg ann cuma mcm menguji ann akan terus dengan abg atau tak
tak pernah sekali pun ann menyesal
waiting for u
care for u
always be there for u
Ann tau lately...ann ikut perasaan sendiri
marah...abg abaikan ann macam tu je
stress dengan kerja buat ann tak fikir sebelum ann keluarkan ayat2 tu
if...u can't forgive me
i'll understand
if.....we will be back like before....i'll understand
maybe kita akan jumpa balik beberapa tahun akan datang...mcm sekarang ni
when with u...the feelings was different
different
sakit macam mana,gelisah macam mana..i still stay strong
and trust u all the time
honestly...i can't see u with someone else one day
how can i do that?
i've spend most of my time and everything for u....how?
how?
i just hope we will be back like before....i really hope

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Please lets be back like before

please don't change...i really really need you
i miss all the moments we had before
yes i was mad at you cuz u ignore me so much
then day by day i realize how much u need u and trust u
yes i'm dissppointed cuz u r starting to ignore me
u never ignore me
u know how much i really loves u everyday right?
i always there for u
and thats the stupidest moments where i leave u...i should ask u first then just mad at you...
hmmmmmmm

Sunday, June 29, 2014

XXXXX

I have no idea……it will be ended like this
For past few days I can still handle it
But…..i can’t stop crying when I’m thinking about it
How can he easily forget me
Forget everything?
Doesn’t he knows that….i’m carrying the big pains in my life
My life already ruin because of him
He promise he would never ever disappoint me….but why now??
Al least give me reason
Don’t just left…Dear Allah….please give me strength  to go through everything
Because its so hard…..
So hard for me…
Everyday I felt like I wanna cry
Please forgive me Allah…..please
Hanya Allah sahaja yg tahu betapa sakitnya hati ini….
Why?why?why u r being like this?
I know u will never done this to me
U wouldn’t hurt me like this
But now why???
U r so SELFISH and CRUEL
I can’t forgive u for what u hv done
I will NOT forgive you….
Sampai ann mati pun ann takkan maafkan abg….sebab sangat2 melampau
All the promise??All what I’ve done??
U didn’t appreciate at all
This is just not u….i know u got the nicest heart I ever known
But with the sudden change??
Why?
I accept u just the way u are, I didn’t complain although its u have to go through hard path in your life.
Why the sudden change??

Why???

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Totally Inspiring boss




on ths 22th June 2014 the young Nasty Inc Event executives with little experience has being given big responsibilities to organize such a big event which important for the whole nation and important for us to maintain our company reputation. because we don't want to disappoint our boss, Sham Van Boonstra and she was not there during the event... we just do whats is best to keep the event on going without an error. At first it was a disaster but finally...we manage to keeps everything under control. Thanks to her guides and faith thats motivate us to move foward. she always let us learn something new...and on that day we learn so many things. We really thankful to have an inspiring boss like her. although we don't have many experience and we still very young but she kept her faith on us that we could manage and organize such a big event. hope that she will still keeps that faith on us cuz we will try our best that we will never disappoint her.

 Other than that....i want to thank her for where i am right now. i think i've matured enough to learn what is called LIFE...she's not only a boss and she also like a bestfriend to me. she teach me a lot about event and event business are my passion. i don't mind busy with works so that....i wouldn't think of anything that could ruin my happy days...

Silence much

Unexpectedly...and shockingly
why suddenly u are like silence....no news at all
i don't know where are u
but i still care about u
and i don't know whyyyy
its painful to keep remember the past moments that we had
i sacrifice everything for u
u promise me
u promise me u will take a good care of me
u won't lie to me
u won't leave me
and what have u done now???
u know how much painful it is right now??
it so so so so much painful
and i will never ever gonna forgive u
u have taken all from me
everything,,,,
i gave u everything
and u didn't appreciate at all...
where is the caring person i've know the most?
u've played with my feelings
like seriously
why suddenly u've change a lot
why??
why??

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Little thing call love


first time we met....i never knew his name and i don't even want to know him
and i never ever realize him among my friends although we've met a couple times and go out together in groups with other college mate
and how weird is it i never realize him
but one day.....after i broke up with my boyfriend
he came to make me smile
we become close for few months and lastly....1st time he makes me surprise how sweet is he and i never forget the 1st moment he kissed my forehead when he sends me rght infront of my hostel before he leave
our relationship becomes closer
and he treats me nicely until one day....when our relationship are at the wonderful moments there's a conflict begins when on that moment i felt like
i would never ever forgive him and don't want to see his face ANYMORE!!
many question we're playin' on my mind on that day....
why he does that?
why he suddenly leave?
why he act like that?
because both of us....don't want that conflict ends every beautiful moments and friendship that we've been before
we still contact each other although its not as close as before
for 2years we never met....just contact via texts,calls and social network
but along the 2years....i've never ever open my heart for anyone else cuz keep thinking about him
although he has a new girlfriend after that and i'm also having relationship with other guy
but...it seems like hard to forget about him
i don't know why....
then....i've broke up with my boyfriend and he also break with his girlfriend...after Eid finally we met again
we hang out together again and close again like before...
but this time....seems like our relationship getting serious by day to day and more wonderful moments we share together and we've been together in a long-term
when we were together....for me it feels like its only two of us are the last human on earth
for the 1st time ever....a guy that for me a special guy ever gave me the most special birthday wish ever and for me its the most special wish,hugs and kiss(but u still can't beat my dad's love...hahahahha)
there's never a single moments u never makes me smile...u always makes me smile
although we're having a rough tough days u never ever failed to make me smile
we go through all the hardness together
i will try my best to be on your side on your rough tough days
although i'm having a same situation...i don't want to show it to you cuz...enough with all the bad days u have to go through with your work and so on
i love to look at you when u we're sleeping...that moment....i could see on your face how tired you are with your daily activities i don't want to wake u up i don't want disturbed u i don't want to wake u from your dreams thats why its hard for me to woke u up when u we're sleeping
although sometime u really piss me off....u disappoint me,i very very so definitely so much angry to you
but its hard for me to be mad at u
we care to each other too much...remember i've cried few days ago
i cried cuz i afraid to loose you again
i cried cuz i afraid u might leave me
i cried cuz i afraid we won't be together
but u will always reminds me of your promise.....should i..?should i....depends on that promise?
should i? but i'm so afraid
i know i never mention this but....u know how much i love u right??please don't disappoint me
i'm happy and grateful to have you no matter what u are who u are....i don't care what people are gonna say about u cuz i believe you will do something for a reason
cuz u have ambition...u will hold on to your promise...you care about everyone that around u
i know u for who u are...
no matter there's a 'bad guy' in u but u also have a big heart where u care about anyone else
i don't want u to leave me...and i also don't want u to leave you
like you've said...'we will do the best for us'
your word reminds me everyday to keep holding on...and I WILL DO IT!cuz i love u so much and let's do it together
i want to see the world with u...i want to always to be with u....the best moments are when we were together....we loved to travel aren't we??i want to have vacation with u...hmmm
i love u love u love u and i will always do!

Saturday, June 14, 2014

Malaysia book of record


#NoCaption

kinda nervous and busyyyyyyyyy week for me
sorry yawl
long time no updates
this 22june i've been given' responsibility by my boss to be dA mastermind of da event
can i do it?
fingercross...hope i can with the guide of my boss and the help of my team

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

I Love You So Much

i don't know how to describe how i felt
cuz i also want to know....
what is your feeling??
no matter what happen..
i will on your side
no matter what you do...
i will on your side
no matter how you are...
i still deeply loves you so much
i don't know how you felt about me...
but honestly...
i can't live without you
i always want to be on your side
i always want you to be on my sight
my best moment....when i'm in your arm
i feel secure
you've promise....you will take a good care of me
we will be forever
i'm holding that promise
either one of us break it....
life must go on isn't?
if one day...i have to face the 'unexpected' thing
i won't give my heart for anyone else...i promise
cuz...
only you the one that i will always love unconditionally
that's my promise....
i love you and you and only you Chef =')

not as bright a you thought

my life might seems like wonderful
but actually....
lots of secrets and sadness being kept all along
lately....
one by one challenges came to our family
but we just stay strong
and try to endure it
no matter what
hmmmmm
i don't know
maybe its a test from Allah
cuz we already forgotten Him
now its time for us to face everything
its not easy
but we will try our best
amin....

 in the other hand...unexpectedly
we received the most shocking news about the lost plane, MH370
we've try our hard
pray and hope
however....
finally we get the answer that everyone not willing to hear...
Al-Fatihah and we pray for the families and crews of MH370....
all the Malaysian also felt the sadness and what happens to the flight
still be a mystery....

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Hello March!!!!





whatsuppppppp bloggers!!!
holla...holla
sorry
long time no post
heheheheheheehhehe
about.... amonth...
right??
kinda busy lately yawl....
loads of assignments
report
final project and bla...bla...bla

now
now....
what da' latest story i can share??
hmmmmm
no idea...kinda lazy to type
ahahahahaha
what can i SAY
Ilately i've been through not a really wonderful days
not a really sucks days
not a really good days
and i don't know how to describe it
but
some of it...teach me a lot about 'LIFE','PEOPLE' and so many things
so...moral of the story
'EXPERIENCE ARE THE BEST TEACHER'
theres....too many things happen....seriously
undescribable
even my self... have no idea how to express it with words

TTYL

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